Im happy but there is a heavy feeling of sadness in my heart that I just can't remove. Why am I like this?

But no matter what I read or practiced, I could never make the sadness budge for longer than a few fleeting moments - and even then, it was likely due to me being distracted from the sensation of sadness rather than anything actually shifting.

It’s difficult to put into words exactly what caused what, but to the best of my ability to describe it, I felt as if my will to keep fighting was beaten right out of me.

This interpretation lead me on a path of self improvement, to fix what I considered to be “wrong” with myself.

What could be the result if I block a covert narc back after he said blocks were going back up, maybe we try this again?

So if you are sad - like me - then be sad.

And the sadness?

But unlike before, there is no more resistance to the sadness.

What happens when your partner doesn't see the value in you and continuously hurts you by searching for something in others knowing it hurts you?

The sadness was still there.

It’s here now, writing to you.

Without resistance, sadness has a sense of beauty and depth I cannot find otherwise in life.

Bill Goldberg challenges Gunther for Saturday Night’s Main Event on July 12th in Atlanta, GA - NoDQ.com

Now, this may sound like a story of failure and giving up, but it’s actually a story of liberation.

It’s still here.

Most people that know me would probably describe me as a social, happy, and somewhat quirky person with a twisted sense of humor.

Why is America so fucked up?

I was tired of fighting.

For much of my adult life, I interpreted this sadness as something being wrong - with either myself or my life in general.

It’s impossible to overstate the freedom and peace I discovered, and I realized the only one who had been keeping those from me was… me and my imagined standards and expectations for how I had imagined I should be.

What are LGBT+ people tired of hearing?

Needless to say, my failed attempts to fix my sadness simply brought me more pain and suffering.

It wasn’t until about 10 years ago that I finally fell out of that ferris wheel of trying and failing to fix myself.

Be who you already are.

Why would the state lie about the Earth's shape? We know that it's flat, but why do they lie and tell us that it is a sphere?

So I finally threw my hands up and said something to the tune of “fuck it, since I can't seem to change, I’ll just be whatever I am then.”

Your job is not to be the manager of your life, but the one who discovers yourself fully.

You are the masterpiece you came here to discover.

This couple paid $19M for 2 Jersey Shore houses. Then they demolished them. - NJ.com

I was tired of trying and failing.

It’s the most beautiful and liberating thing in the world.

What I am trying to say is that when you stop trying to change yourself into something you are not, you give yourself the gift of discovering yourself as you already are.

How do so-called Religious/Christian people really think homosexuality is even a sin? That would be nonsense. In fact, LGBT people need love instead of contempt/hatred. The word Homosexual didn't appear until the 1850s.

When I stopped trying to force myself to be something I am not, I gave myself the freedom of being who I am.

You are like me, then.

I had run out of hope.

Why is the concept of pumping water uphill not commonly used as a source of electricity generation, similar to pumped-hydro systems?

In the absence of a should, I was free to be as I am.

What most people don’t know unless they’ve looked more closely is that there is also an element of deep, profound sadness that has always been with me since as long as I can remember.